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Blessed Be the God Who Is Holding My Babies: Finding Comfort After Pregnancy Loss


Isn’t it funny how one little call can change so much?

A few weeks ago, I got a call I didn’t anticipate, letting me know that two little embryos, two little lives my husband and I had created, had been stripped of their life. The babies we wanted to love and cherish every moment of their lives were no longer alive. They were gone before we even had a chance to name them.
The heart that had swelled with more love than I ever imagined possible for little cells multiplying in my womb sunk deep within me. I had been praying. I trusted in God to bring the babies safely into my arms. But in His wisdom, He called them to Himself instead.
When I had calmed myself, I texted a dear friend and told her that my little ones were no longer on this earth. Her response stopped me in my tracks. 

“Oh no,” she wrote, “Blessed be the name of the Lord.”

I expected sympathy. I expected her to decry the injustice of my babies being taken from me. I never expected her to offer praise to their maker. 
She echoed words of Job: “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” – Job 1:21, ESV
In my moment of despair, I was angry at God. Why had He given me the joy of their little lives only to rip them from my womb? I was doubting the goodness and wisdom of the One I claimed to trust. My heart wasn’t in it, but I needed to praise. 

Because without that God, my hope would shatter into despair. 

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If I didn’t know that my God was watching my despair, bottling my tears, and weaving together a beautiful, perfect plan, I don’t think I could have gone on. But I can move on because the Lord, He is a good God. Jesus may have called my little ones home, but I know He is holding them in perfect love. They will never know the sting of the scratched knee or hurtful words, they will only know His goodness.

Because of His goodness, I will bless His name.

My friend was right to draw my mind to God’s goodness. She comforted me without allowing me to fall into despair. 
When life is hard, when plans go array, I need to remember where my hope is found. It is not in the future I have planned for myself nor in the children I desired, it is grounded solely and firmly in the Lord. Praising Him in the midst of hardship puts this into perspective. It reminds me of His sovereignty and comforts my aching heart.
Job knew my grief even more poignantly. He had just lost his 10 children all at once. But he praised the name of the Lord nonetheless. Because even in our darkest moment, God still is good and still deserves our praise. 

My pain is not lost on God. He knows what it is to lose a child.

He willingly sent His son to be mocked, scorned, tortured, and executed upon a cross for me and for you.
How dare I doubt the goodness of one who would go to such an extreme to demonstrate His love for me?
But yet, I do doubt and must force myself to call to mind His goodness and faithfulness to me.
So I praise. I remember what God has done for me. I preach the truth of His gospel to myself when I doubt what is real and find myself chasing the promises of this world.

God has promised to redeem every moment of my life.

Nothing that has happened, nothing that will happen, will be untouched by His grace.
While everything Job has was returned to him doubled, he only had 10 more children. Because the lost children, they were never really lost. They were being held and loved by their Maker. They were cradled closely to His bosom just as my little ones are.
My hope is found in the goodness of my God. He loved my little ones more than I did. He acted wisely. I don’t know why and I probably never will this side of heaven. But I do know that if it is what God has ordained, if I knew what He knew, I wouldn’t choose it another way. 

So I can said boldly, “Blessed be the name of the Lord.” 

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My story of early pregnancy loss

Life is a miracle: experiencing pregnancy after loss

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Bailey Suzio

Bailey Suzio’s journey started out in Michigan, where she grew up as the oldest of 10 (yes, ten) children, and has led her to Hawaii with her husband and their two dogs. In addition to her love for the Lord and her family, her great passions are coffee and collecting an exorbitant amount of books. Bailey has spent the last few years teaching and working with a local church. She writes at about her life, faith, and infertility journey.


  1. Beth Jensen

    I am not religious at all but this post is beautifully done, and something I’d love to share with my mom friends who are religious and struggling with pregnancy loss. Thank you.

    18 . Jul . 2018
  2. Tiff|18thAvenueMom

    Oh Bailey, my heart breaks for you! I remember that pain all too well. And honestly, it hurt a million times over when my first child was born…because I finally fully understood the extent of my losses, now that I was actually holding what I had lost 3 times. But you’re exactly right. Yes, the Lord even understands THAT pain – because He lost His own Son for our sakes. This is such a wonderful reminder of just how much God loves us and cares about every single struggle we have. One day, He will restore to you the years that the locusts have eaten. 💙💙💙

    18 . Jul . 2018
  3. Sarah @ Freedom is Hers

    Wonderful! This brings such love and beauty to something so hard. While I have never suffered a pregnancy loss I have suffered from infertility for quite some time. I am forever grateful for those friends who helped me look to God first when I felt so lost.

    18 . Jul . 2018
  4. Jasmine Hewitt

    I’m not religious, but I love this post I’ve suffered pregnancy loss and it is not easy. But I love the way you’re approaching this in order to heal!

    19 . Jul . 2018
  5. Courtney

    Bailey, as always, you put words to feelings I couldn’t express. Walking the “trying to conceive” road again after 2 losses and fearing another…but this freedom to worship, to trust and to rest that you modeled encouraged me SO much.

    19 . Jul . 2018
  6. Shan Walker

    What a faithful word to share. I too was angry at first but then realized that He is God and I am not. Thanks for sharing!

    19 . Jul . 2018
  7. Toni-Lee Bellaart

    This article sums up exactly how my husband and I are feeling at the moment. We have just gone through the loss of our first child. There were many tears over the desire for our baby and now many tears over the loss of our baby. We haven’t felt angry at any point during this situation, we have felt complete peace knowing God is still good! Thank you for this article. I will be sharing it with all my friends to help them understand how we are feeling!

    02 . Oct . 2018

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